A Crisis of Geek
OK, so I’m having a “Geek Identity Crisis”.
I’ve been looking at my hobbies and wondering, “What’s next?”
The real problem here being that I just can’t justify buying toys any more. I want to buy a sword again someday. When is THAT ever going to come in handy? I love medieval things, but why get more when I can just look at pretty pictures for free? It’s not to keep any of the art alive. I don’t do most of that stuff anyway. It’s just to have pretty things.
I think that my main problem is I just got my life back together and don’t see the point in returning to things that now seem a bit frivolous to me.
Why have a car?
Because the transit system around here stinks and I want to be able to visit people that are farther away without having to rely on others.
Why have nicer clothing?
Because in social standing one is judged by one’s appearance. The clothing does not make the man, no, but it does give the man an “in.”
Why have a computer and cell phone?
To stay connected to my world. Both here and where my distant friends are.
Books are free at the library.
What else is there to spend money on that isn’t a necessity?
Then why bother with geekery if I don’t need it?
Now what?
I think I’ll save up for a bike instead of a sword.
I’ll do martial arts to stay fit and for self defense instead of purely for academic reasons.
My hobbies shall have a point other than collecting things that collect dust. I’ll enjoy the world around me instead of trying so hard to shape it to my will.
I don’t know, I feel like I’m rambling…. 
Well put, ive read this a few times now. Very phenomenologically existential (i mean that in a good way), this entry is thought provoking like a deep poem. I can really relate to it. How goes it this summer now?
Summer has been… Well, a big fat mess, really.
I’m sure I’ll add something revelatory about it later.
Well, come visit anytime, you have an open invitation for a day or two trip out here. Plenty of room in the Harpers Ferry yard for a tent.